Living in the present

Mun couldn't be more precise in expressing what i've felt at the back of my mind these past months. Through NS I've always moaned the things I had to go through and looked forward to sometime in the future when things seemed to promise something better. And thus far, I've always managed to look in retrospect and realise that I've been enjoying myself, learnt a lot and basically had a really amazing life these past few years. Perhaps it is my way of moving forward, looking forward and preparing for something better, always stepping up? But mun's totally right. I focus too much on perfection and if any aspect of my life at present is found wanting, i render it entirely miserable, only to find out later that I had the time of my life. Well, times of my life.

As a short 3 months remain before i leave for UK and an entire new phase (a drastic one that sets in motion much change to come) of my life begins, I find myself desperately trying to find the friends that make me who I am. Uprooting myself from Singapore these coming 4-5 years doesn't have to mean drifting from these people who've been so dear to me, but a transition to what I'd think would be a different phase of friendship which marks our transition into adulthood and into working life. Yea, we won't be able to see each other in the context of school everyday, or meet up everyday to hang around town, but these friendships run deeper to fond memories of how we stood up for each other, or lent a shoulder for a weeping friend. And as Daryl put it last night, the conversations we had will change, indicating our growth not only as individuals, but as friends. From school and rockbands she and I used to talk about in RJC, to boyfriends / crushes we can't understand and uni life, to "what our kids are doing" in the future. It all sounds hilarious, but all so real! We're really growing up!

Thanks for last night Daryl. I really enjoyed myself. Haven't taken a walk with a friend along the streets at night just talking about anything and everything, in ages. It was really lovely.