whirlwind

it sucks to have thought that you could confide in someone, only to realise that u couldn't bring yourself to do it cos she's part of a circle of friendship with a loophole in this trust of confidentiality? put simply, u can't have the person u trust to know the inner most depths of your emotions being really close to someone else you're close to? there's got to be a law written on that somewhere.

well yea. i was deeply disturbed by that yesterday, and totally confirmed it today. just as if it was sealed by a kiss. all the bollocks about being able to confide, sorry...i can't do it. disappointment hits you as it shoves all the values you hold on to strongly, out of the window. you're fucking attached. and you fucking know that. so really, it's back to the same rule of thumb that prevails. where relations get complex, stick with the guys. i'm throwing this friendship overboard. so u had too much to drink, so u just broke up. sorry. it's not good enough a reason to be kissing a guy who's attached. even if he initiated it. he's at fault too yea. and i'll run him down tmr. but goodbye. u can't be more than just a superficial friend. there's no room for that kinda complex friendships. i won't allow it.

on a lighter note, it was really great meeting up with alvin liong and weixian!!! i hope u guys had fun at warwick today. esp you alvin! it's been really really long. really felt great meeting you guys. at least i know this isn't one of the meaningless and empty friendships. there's definitely more to it.