down time

the flipping internet is finally working again back here in warwick.
been just watching movies the past two days. ugh. give me about a day to upload photos and possibly videos.

and so it is...

this is bad. i don't want this post to slip away into the dark abyss of emotional solitude and shit. but i've really never felt more alone. maybe i haven't tried hard enough to befriend anyone at a more personal depth, or maybe i just can't relate to their experiences. sat mostly silent at an after dinner conversation with some of the singaporeans and just listened to them go on about hwachong life and stuff. do they really enjoy being tickled by dry and by all accounts, senseless humour, or are they being patronizing? i really don't know. how'd u classify me? i think i'm pretty transparent ain't i? just like mun. if i don't agree with something or someone, there's no hiding it for me. or maybe i was just too tired to try to be tickled by those silly jokes and humour. is there such a thing? as in honestly speaking, u do have to want to be tickled to allow yourself to be amused by dry stuff right?

for now i can only look forward till tmr ends and friday marks my trip down to winter and more significantly, the start of my winter hols. i definitely miss all my friends back in singapore. all the close ones especially. if u're reading this, it prob means u're someone to me. you guys were hard to come by..

and yea i miss ym. never thought i'd feel it this way (never thoughts happen qt often don't they?) but yea beyond the whole hiccup incident it's been really easy talking with him and he prob marks as the person i've had deepest conversations with in person (over here that is). i do measure human relationships based on how deep the conversations you can have with that person. with him back in spore, i need to break out of this whole circle of familiarity and get to know ppl on an individual basis, a more personal basis. it'd definitely be easier with someone from outside this whole network of familiarity. i mean the whole bunch of them have well decided to stay together along the same street next yr after shifting out of campus. and another rjc network of tell and speculate is the least that i need.

winter, come hither!